208: Conflict of interests
Had a really great weekend, in the company of both old friends and new acquaintances. Alcohol was consumed, but the panic anxiety that usually accompanies my inebriation and forces me to withdraw and act all mysterious and deep by strumming a guitar in the secluded darkness, seemed to have more important things to do this night. I did escape for a short while, but that was mainly because my intoxication was insufficient.. I think..
The demons did make an impact on the party by fucking up two other guests. It's pretty cool to see how certain women seem to appear only more beautiful in their miserable agony. I do hope that is something in their composure rather than my fascination of human suffering. Perhaps it's a crack in a bad-ass facade, letting me catch a glimpse of a unprecedented vulnerability within, but that sounds awfully chauvinistic, doesn't it? But the alternative is some sort of attraction toward someone who just puked their guts out, and I don't think I have an Asian ancestry.. *SNAP*
The next day was likewise pleasant, where we discussed.. uh.. I ranted about the inevitable conflicts that will haunt our traditional family constellations, and the bitter realization that your kids may benefit from you and your partner's separation/divorce. And then we had another cup of coffee and I continued to prevent my hostess to enjoy the company of my host for another hour. Because if you can prevent premarital sex, then it is your obligation toward God and your congregation to do so, right?
Didn't visit my granddad yesterday, though. I sucketh. I'll stop by the cemetery after work tomorrow, and talk a bit about everything and nothing. With a bit of luck, the candles will flicker even then, illuminating the gloomy remembrance garden and question my rational mind and the decision to visit a cemetery - in the dark - alone - at a junction in time where the world of the living and the dead are slightly closer than usual. Still it's very peaceful there. It is a great spot to rest eternally. I think I'd like to rest there. Yup.
I am error. You are error. We are error. Error.
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Let the dead rest until they are needed again. It is no use to deny it any longer. I have to put Vampires Suck on indefinite hold for now. There’s a number of reasons why, and I’ll try to sum them up fairly quickly.
One thing is the internet as a medium in itself. You’ve seen me contemplate in earlier commentaries how the need for proper updates and a fair amount of content each update makes longer storylines challenging. After my first creative breakdown, I started the Chronicles of coffee and cigarettes, adjusting focus from the setting to those who (ab)use it. These were short gags presented as strips. But I don’t want to make strips. Or gags for that matter. At least not now.
VS evolved into something I find much more interesting creating – a story. Some of you, who play any edition of WoD, realise this as well. It’s not about how shitty or badass your character is in a game mechanic balance perspective. It is the drama that inevitably will surface because everything you touch will turn to shit. Life’s still a fucking joke, but everyone doesn’t get it, and others don’t find it particularly funny.
Continuing on what has been done is troublesome. I could start making proper ‘zines altogether out of VS, but there’s simply too much backstory only available online. And then there’s my conscious decision to direct VS to those already familiar with the Masquerade-setting. A proper shift in medium would require a full re-boot, and probably to drop the universe by White Wolf altogether.
But I assure you that the vampires have not returned into the shadows forever. They are always present, and the great resource material for classical Victorian horror can be applied within a multitude of settings. But VS as it is and has been, will not be for quite a while. I am deeply indebted to you all for giving me these 4 years.
Thank you so much,
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